I am not linking anything. I am not going to go into detail. I am sick of the details concerning the bastrard that killed those poor Amish girls. My heart goes out to their families. But the news needs to stop.

I went down for lunch today and CNN was on the wide screens in the cafeteria giving all the gory details. I mean a packing list of what this sick bastard took with him and what all he planned to do. The gave details of the notes he left for his wife. And that was all on the headlines under the guy talking. I cannot imagine all the details they actually broadcast with sound, you see, I was wearning my headphones. Even with that I still could only choke down about a quarter of my lunch. Sitting there watching people eat while listening to what they were saying did me no good either. I cannot imagine being able to eat with that sickness pouring into my ears. Just what I read was more than enough to put me off my food totally and completely. I am now locked in my office until my time for lunch is over. I don’t want to talk to anyone and I don’t want to hear, see, read, think about more news.

No I am not alright. I am sick to my stomach. I think I am having a physical reaction to both the case and the callousness of the world around me. Little girls, some my daughters age, were shot point blank and died or were horribly injured. The ones that live will have to deal with this the rest of their lives. I cannot imagine being alright with this. I cannot see writing it off as something that happened to other people. I want to go home and hug my kids right now. I mean like really right now. I do not want to be where I am feeling like this.

I am not a good Christian today. I am anything but. I hope that fucker rots in hell. I hope he burns for all eternity. I wish things upon him that I having to make up because nothing I have ever previously imagined is enough for this bastard. No I am not OK. I am not alright. I don’t know when I will be that way again. I do not want to just let this slip into the past like we have done with the tragedy in Waco, the shootings in Columbine, Ruby Ridge, the Twin Towers, and so much more atrocity that we don’t even think about. We just tamp it all down and forget it happened. We go on with our lives without much of a thought for the families, victims, and so on. Of course we have to or we would just cease to function. What does it say about our society that we have so much stuff that we cannot bear to function with all of it out in the free range of our minds? Think about that for a while.

I have to go now. I am not OK.
(I am not about to go do something crazy, don’t get any ideas people!)